Depressed...

My God, I'm so upset I can't hide it--and I'm pretty damn good at hiding the truth. The walls are crashing down..again..and the only thing I can do..is..just let em crush me really.


You might be thinking "Why,? What's wrong?" My family is slowly going back in the destructive roots. My mom went to a casino Monday night...according to my dad. She didn't come home til 4am... I don't know what I can do. No, what I should do. My mom is slowly going back to her roots more & more. Freakin' Lovely huh?...I just want to fall apart nows. I feel so alone being outta my friends this stuff I have to deal with constantly..

Sometimes my mind is so clouded..so..so distracted it feels like I'm gonna fall to floor crying. I can't repress every time my mom goes to a casino and my family goes crazy that she does leave. Like always..she leave and then when she comes home. She buys snack or food, candy, etc to make up for it and pretend like it didn't happen.

My friend, who I met online. About 3yr ago..is going through so much stuff its insane. Soo that's getting me down too.


I just wanna lay down and cry....no wait..I'm doing that nows. Well I don't really wanna go to school right now..or for awhile really. I just feel so depressed..like..like I have no reason to be anymore. I don't know maybe i'm thinking to hard... Its so hard to smile and laugh though..


I think that's it..soo yeah. I'm done typing for awhile.. Byes ~Claire