The Night of hell

My gawd, Last night fuckin sucked sooo hard. I decided to go to bed around like close to 2am. Hey I couldn't sleep I was sick yesterday and slept til 2pm anyways. I didn't really fall asleep til like 3:30


Anywho, I lay down listening to my ipod, well my musica that normally makes me pass out. Except everytime I feel asleep it was a really f*cked up dream. This one dream kept repeating..it felt so real it was scary. I woke up fuckin crying, shaking, outta breath. It was like this I'm riding in my friend's car. He drives down my street to drop me off by my house. Except my house is in flames when we got there. At that point I lost my sanity. I was about ot try to run in my house and try to save them or maybe die with them.

My friend is holding me back I'm crying my eyes out telling him "God dammnit, let me go. I can't let them die. If it was me in there they would of tried to save me. If you love me let me go so i can try to save them." It fades out black and it reappear with me and my friend watching my house get dowsed with water. The fire department stops the fire goes in my house and comes out telling me "I'm sorry miss there are no survivors". That moment I fall to floor crying and slam my knuckles against the cement pavement to my house.

Due to my house was so badly burned I had to stay with my friend for awhile. For a good chunk of the moment I gone like almost emo. I never smiled anymore, I couldn't have eye contact, and if someone yelled at me I didn't fight back...I just let em. My friend tired of seeing me depressed, just hugs me not letting me go. And Before I knew it---I broke down right in his arms.


Dream 2: The second dream it was almost dark and I'm just standing on a dock looking at the view. Then all of sudden my arms was pulled back handcuffed, and my mouth was covered with some sort of cloth. And I was pushed in the water, I tried to break free while being underwater. I remember all the people who i care about, the people I lost, it was like my whole life flashing before my eyes. In the end I just accepted death and watched as my body slipping into the darkness of the water.


So in the end a good chunk of the night I was waking up crying, shaking, and trying to calm myself down. Last night was just depressing T.T. I hope tonight will be a better night.


Laterz, ~Claire